I know I said everything was cool. In many many ways, it so is, but why is my heart finding it hard to resist you? As soon as you walk towards me and smile, my soul starts flying. You always hug me, but I always try and hold on to you for a little longer than you do. We are always in crowded places; lately pubs and the festival hall, or at work. I’d like to hug you and just rest there for some minutes, REALLY feeling my heart next to yours. Those eyes of yours are like amazing shiny stars, but at the same time they are the bottomless ocean where I drown and come alive simultaneously. Let me be there for a while too. It feels like my home.
I want you to open up to me, not only about your fears, frustrations, ideas and passions, but I want to see your playful child, the one that can freely express joy and fun without your reluctance to be vulnerable. I’d like to make you laugh until you cry. That’s what you deserve my love, you deserve freedom to be you.
I want us to cook a meal together and for you to feed me like you did today. (I almost cried when you offered me a fork of that sweet delight, but you probably didn’t realise why I refused it at first. It was just a beautiful gesture, but I couldn’t take it). Then, after we’ve eaten and had some wine, we can just relax…lay down on the sofa if you like and appreciate how our love of food make us feel comfort and security. We don’t even have to talk. I want to look after you and you to look after me, as we do now but on a more profound yet simple level. If you’re happy and content, then so will I be.
You told me you don’t want intimacy. But wouldn’t it be beautiful to see our fingers entwined? You have got such lovely hands, I always look at hands and yours are just perfect. I know they would fit mine like a glove. Please, just hold my hand one day soon. The thought of anything sexual with you is such a mind blowing concept to me even though I feel that we would be connected again in our inexplicable way that begins with the soul, engulfs my heart and my body too. You are frightened of me, aren’t you? You are insecure, but my god, you don’t realise that far from taking you over in any way, I will be liquid in your hands. I would never be forceful, we would never be just having sex. No, it would encompass everything I am and all the unconditional love I have for you. Being one body as we are one soul would turn me into us. If you’re not ready for that, I respect and understand always. But please, before you leave, touch my cheek with that soft hand of yours and kiss me! I long for this to happen. You have no idea how much I need to feel your lips.
There is nothing more beautiful than you and my dreams of me and you.
I hate it when I’m not very productive. It’s not that I haven’t got plenty to do or that I’m not inspired. It has been a combination of having a strange head cold coupled with hay fever, spending time with Fiance, and just generally waiting around for a phone call about a job. It has been like sitting on a bridge half way across. No man’s land.
I suppose it’s not always a bad thing to do nothing. It makes the activities you love more exciting and you see them with new eyes when you finally do get down to them again. Sometimes I have too much to do that I don’t do anything. Overload!
After all: ”The time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time.” ~Bertrand Russell
This is what I have started. It’s the Fire Element Card for the Major Arcana.
This is the last one of the five, having done Air, Water, Earth and Spirit. I’m not sure if I posted the finished Spirit card, so here it is:
I think the cards are looking really good together. I made this image up so that I could make sure they looked like they belonged together. Packs of cards should hold some unity. With these it’s the intricate borders and the angel wings.
Finally, here’s my reading material. Interesting wouldn’t you say? I’m keen to bring some ancient symbols into my jewellery pieces.
So, until next time, stay light, stay bright and don’t feel bad about doing nothing!
Blessings & Light
and from my familiar:
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I am in the process of editing it after completing the first complete draft.
I really would love to see it published, but who knows?
Anyone got any advice?
Ideally I would love to illustrate it as well. I have included my mood board images and the sketches of the characters in the article.
Any comments or advice would be very much appreciated.
Thanks and Bright Blessings!
I hope you enjoy my little affirmation card. Sending out healing vibes to everyone.
Blessings and Light,
- Send Healing to Yourself (mj1978.wordpress.com)
- A Great Healing Happening (bellableue.com)
- Healing Through Inspiration Can Lead to Your Own Success Story (bellableue.com)
1) Moving into a better job that supports the expression of who you are, your passion or your mission, which are basically the same.
15) Your health improves and/or you experience a miracle-like healing of a long standing physical ailment.
16) You crave a simplicity in all things and require and thrive on simple processes, simple desires and a very simple lifestyle.
28) You begin to have an understanding about how everything is connected. You understand that there are no mistakes
- SanJAsKa: Many Souls are Awakening to the Realities of Ascension (the2012scenario.com)
- Archangel Gabriel – The Freedom of Ascension (aquariuschannelings.com)
- Ascension Symptoms ~ Spirituality and 2012 (poolsoflove.wordpress.com)
- And from the Ascension Community we have… (deniselefay.wordpress.com)
- It Is Time Now: Get To Work (the2012scenario.com)
I don’t do revenge.
I believe life has a constant force. The force you exert on others is the force that will go back to you. Sometimes it may not be back directly but it will always find its way.
This was written by a lady on http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2011/01/07/on-forgiving/.
I believe this, even though I haven’t got any particular examples to site here. It makes perfect sense.
What if someone stole from someone. The person who had his/her thing stolen would be very angry, naturally so. But, would the right thing to do be to go and break into their house and steal something of theirs? No! Why?
1. That makes that innocent person now a thief as well as the original thief. What has changed? Nothing. It has made matters worse because now there are two criminals instead of one.
2. What does the innocent person gain? They might feel better, hahahahaaarrrrrr I’ve got my money back, BUT what does that money represent? Is it REALLY their money? Will they really feel better about themselves when the initial rush of the act has worn off?
3. If the original thief finds out who it was, won’t they want to get revenge on the revenge? When will it end? In someone getting arrested, hurt, killed?
Surely it’s best to get to the bare root of the scenario. WHY did they take the money? Maybe they are starving, maybe they needed it for medicine…who steals money for fun? There has to be a serious reason. The only way to prevent these things from happening is to get to the root cause and try and find a solution. If it’s not rcognised, it will continue……it’s much like taking aspirins for headaches…isn’t it better to find out WHY you’ve got a headache and get it fixed, than to just DISGUISE the problem?
Actions brought on by anger and bitterness will never solve any problem or conflict. If revenge is the only solution then people will just do worse and worse things to each other and all understanding and communication will be lost. The only way we can stop people from doing things we don’t like is to tell them why we don’t like it and if they continue, we will not share our lives with them.
”How people treat you is their karma; how you react is yours.”
– Wayne Dyer
The best way to treat someone who has done you wrong is to be kind…..not overly so, just enough for them to see that you are not going to let them ruin your day/week/life and that you are evolved enough to understand that actions have consequences. If this makes them wonder, then good. If it doesn’t then it’s not your problem. They are not evolved enough to realise this. They will reap what they sow in time and maybe learn from it. Your job is to get on with your life and make sure YOUR karma is good!